Ooh! Row borous!

I am feeling a little worried, y’all.

Not about politics, though there’s plenty to be concerned about there. This is a turned-inward, self-centered concern. I have a friend who describes it as “having too many tabs open,” and that seems to sum it up nicely.

I’m worried about finishing Holly’s book. It’s a soft goal, but I would really like to have it done in time to sell copies at WW, at the end of September. That’s in the realm of “do-able, but def’nitely labor intensive.” Which would be okay, but…

I’m worried about finishing the rigs in time for WW as well. As of today, Terranova needs adaptations to her ignition wiring, shifter linkage, and power steering pump bracket before she’ll run, as well as reassembly of the front end and a fuel pump. And that’s not addressing the house issues like a leaky fresh water tank and inoperative water heater and generator. Oh, and she could use new tires, but in a pinch I have five extras and can just replace them as they blow. As for Bovril, he needs his engine and transmission re-installed, the fuel tank hooked up, brakes installed and some alignment/suspension issues sussed out before he’ll be ready. And both of them have additional small decoration issues to work out. Trundle is roadable, but could use some suspension and drivetrain freshening before making his second attempt at California City. DemonKitty doesn’t have to be running, but I do need to wire up that engine and get the body prepared for its transformation. And I have to find a means of getting it to WW, be it renting a trailer or buying a flatbed. Which is fine, but…

I’m worried about selling the Beardog, which I need to do to generate the funds to secure a vehicle to haul the DemonKitty with. It’s sitting on Craigslist with not much interest, at the moment, probably because it needs a $400 part to be drivable. I’d fix it myself but there’s just not time and it wasn’t supposed to stick around this long anyway. I plan to skip re-registering it, because that’s $150 I don’t want to spend. Which is great but…

I’m worried about finances. My savings account for WW fuel (which will be a considerable expense) keeps getting depleted by various stupid emergencies, and it’s not much higher than it was in March when I laid down what I needed to set aside. And random new medical bills aren’t helping matters. I’ve got a travel-cost estimate in hand, and I’m exploring ways to reshuffle the vehicles I’m taking and what I’m taking with to bring the cost down and still get a good balance of being able to show off the stuff I want to show off. So, that’s no big, I’ve got a second job that I’m working as much as I can to save money. Which leaves me with not much time to write, or to work on the rigs.

And so the worry goes around and around, eating itself. I don’t think I’m at the point where I need to dramatically revise my plans or give up, or that these goals are unattainable. It’s just not going to be easy, and it’s going to be a razor’s edge kind of success, where one wrong thing will throw it all into a cocked hat.